In the past few years I have always dealt with being overwhelmed. It’s like a hard balance in being able to deal with life, change, and everything in between.
I’ve dealt with change pretty well my whole life. I’ve never really feared it like so many other people seem to do. I’ve changed jobs, schools, cities, states pretty regularly.
I got married. I think that was the biggest change I had to deal with because we did not live together before we were married and we are living with my elderly MIL. So there were so many new things we were dealing with. Living together. Figuring out NFP. Being Married. My husband was unemployed and looking for a job. My job was SUPER busy at this time as well.
But the latest change is going to be super hard. My mom got a new job and is moving 20 hours away. I know it’s going to be okay but man it is going to be so hard. I’ve never lived more than a days drive away from her.
And it’s so hard to talk to people about it because it’s like they either don’t know what to say or just say unhelpful things. I don’t even know where I am going with this post other than it’s just something I have felt I needed to write down.
I think part of it has to do with my last post. My mom got a job in her field what she is called to do by God. And I still cannot figure out what that is for me. I’ve been lookin for a new job for over 2 years and haven’t been able to find anything that doesn’t require a 3 hour (round trip) daily commute that I know I would not be able to handle mentally.
I’m constantly seeing the same jobs posted online in my area over and over again. So I don’t even know if the jobs are fake, real, they don’t want me but can’t find other people, or the people they hire are horrible and leave after only a few months.
So I’m still struggling with what God wants me to do with my life. I don’t know the answer. I think it’s hard to listen in all the noise that surrounds us. Like I love going to adoration to talk to God because it’s quiet and peaceful but at my parish the only times to go are between 9am and 3pm when I am at work.
So that is what is going on in my life for now. I guess time will tell. I’m hoping to have a somewhat fun summer. I’ll be road tripping up with my mom to her new job and then flying home in June. I took myself off the EM Schedule at church for July so we don’t have to worry about which mass we are going to go to and have some beach days. And in August we’re going to Myrtle Beach, SC for a family vacation.
In between all that hopefully I’ll get some of my blog drafts edited and posted and my business blog/website updated. I’m in a summer mastermind so that should help.